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my bigs start school this week


In just one day. That’s twenty-four hours, 1,440 minutes, 86,400 seconds. That’s what’s left of the three years I had with my two oldest in my classroom here at Built on the Rock.

I’m gonna just throw this out there and say that I’m not handling it all that well. Three years. Some days it seemed to stretch on forever. Some days I hated it and wanted to quit. Some. Few. Most days it was good and right. Many days it was magnificent, a well-timed and perfectly choreographed dance.

Any and all posts where moms are jumping up and down shouting for joy that school has begun, make me want to throw things. I get the sentiment behind it. I know at one time I used to think that way too. Now though, having seen and experienced the joy of home education, I no longer remember what it was like to wish for summer’s end.

There is something that feels very wrong about asking someone else to educate my child.

There is something very wrong about saying good-bye to them at 8:00 in the morning and then not seeing them again until…on some days, almost 6:00.

This is what we wanted, but now that it’s a mere twenty-four hours away, I have doubts.

I’m putting my children into a classroom setting where I don’t know their classmates or their classmates’ families. While I am confident that their teachers and curriculum will be rooted in Christ and his saving love and grace, it’s not me at the wheel. I learned so much about my children having them at home with me full time. I’m a little afraid that one day soon, I’ll turn around and I will have forgotten the details of their make-up that is still forming them into the unique creations they are. How am I possibly going to remember them in just three hours a day?

Don’t tell them. They are beyond thrilled. They are confident and ready. Oldest Daughter cannot wait for the next 1,440 minutes to pass.

And I will survive, and teach everything I know to the third grader still on my roll.

My bigs are going to be wonderful additions to their classrooms and their school community. I’m just going to miss them.

But not for another 86,400 seconds.


Author: Heather

I want you to see life the way I see it. Often contradictory, seldom predictable, many times lovely, occasionally tragic, but every day filled with God's grace.

8 thoughts on “my bigs start school this week

  1. Change is difficult and you’ve had so many this year. New baby, new home, new church, new school and probably more. But you always seem to handle it all with grace. Your bright children will easily adjust to their new school, I predict. But I understand the anxiety. When I sent Lindsey to be mainstreamed into school, don’t you know I spend most the day in prayer!

    • Thank you Dixie. I know this isn’t anything new in the world of parenting. You’re right, there have been multiple changes for us this year. I remember there being many days filled with prayer when Oldest Daughter entered kindergarten. I so appreciate the reminder!

  2. Hang in there and enjoy your last precious minutes. Your kids will do great! Kid’s always adapt better then we moms do 🙂

  3. I hug you. I take Grace to school one day a week, and it’s hard. It is the glory of just “being” with them that brings me the warmest heart. Your bigs will be amazing additions to their classrooms, excellent examples for their fellow classmates, and surely model students for their teachers. I know you will miss them, but that’s what I love about you. Your littles will get a few extra hugs, and that’s ok too. 🙂

    • Kelly, Thank you! I know they will do just fine and I do appreciate the reminder that I will have some extra time for my youngest gifts. That will be a good thing for all of us, I’m sure. Blessings on your school year. I so enjoy watching your children grow! You’re a good momma!

  4. I feel badly that I was one of the moms jumping up and down after the summer was over! 🙂 I know it is hard to see the years pass though. I think any new situation causes a lot of anxiety until we see how it works out for us…no matter how many stories we hear about it working out just fine for other people. (I’ve heard plenty of positive ones about college lately, but it still doesn’t make me any less nervous to drop my oldest off tomorrow.) I’ll be thinking of you this week and I hope you’ll give us an update on things later. Seeing God work out the details is always encouraging!

    • I’m sure there will much post-worthy material from their new school. Thank you Marie for your kind words. You are in my prayers as you too begin a new phase in your family’s education process. College…oh, many prayers! 🙂

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